Mr XOXO
asked me out for a movie yesterday int the morning(after smth happened)
Morning and noon.
And it was only two of us, yeap I'm very happy.
But not as how I used to smile from my heart.
I was glad I agreed, finally. (after that)
We caught Hotel for dogs,
I thought a movie would make my day esp when something happened to me in the morning :(
I really don't know what got over me, it was just lunch and then movie :)
Anyway, I just chatted with guy's pal last night.
True, she said "One shouldn't expect too much" and that's why I learnt to be contented.
I'm not really happy though abt some things.
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Went down t Aloha Changi to meet poly clique and friends- evening.
I don't know why, it's weird and awkward.
Somehow, I feel I shouldn't be there.
I know I have lost what i used to had. Full-stop. No more.
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Thanks Adrian for coming all the way down t Changi. Really. A lot. :)
I wouldn't have made it there in time, and right. I'm stupid, I'd get lost..
Went to hospital, met girls.
Went into ward, Children's emergency dept.
The room was all silent, all cool.. Probably ticks and screams startling by the machines..
The machines- they were the equipment which were supporting the living bodies lying down in serenity..
I saw the boy, his eyes were swollen, you know.. Swollen like you had just cried cos you lost your first love?
Remember the pain? Remember the amt of tears you had dropped..?
You thought you'd never be loved again?
You thought you were just so imperfect, you thought you were useless and things etc..
The poor boy- eyes swollen and teary like he had been crying.
Mouth swollen too, I guess due to the tubes.
Girl and I even saw a tube from him and a pack which contained some blood.
We couldn't read the machines, didn't dare to pester or pose a disturbance to the guardians and angels in white..
We could only stand there helplessly..
Hoping for a miracle to happen.
Hoping for the boy to be healthy& happy once more!
PLEASE STAY STRONG! :]
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Within the four walls, he laid there not being alone..
Opposite of his bed and him, laid two babies on two different beds.
Looking at them, you know it's definitely not those healthy and happy babies posing for the ads seeling comfortable baby accessories and etc.
Pain were written all over their face- swollen.
The sight of that makes you want to cry.
Girl even said to friend: She was just like me just now. Remember when I first went to see him yesterday, tears immediately flowed down to my cheeks like a running tap. The sight is unbearable and heart-wrenching.
You would feel that Life is so unfair, why must God do this to him and them?
The babies- they are not even one year old yet.
You will even ponder- did they even have the chance to open their eyes to see their parents before?
Worse still, she showed me to another suffering dearie.
He was even in the incubator.
Suffering, ever since he was borned.
He probably cried before, I don't even know.
I am rather emotional today. Who won't after the different affairs in just a day?
Alright, I'm getting up at seven-thirty sharp. I shd retire now.
Meeting girl to go to temple later.
That's the least we can do for you boy.
Pls stay strong! Your parents need you dear.
Protect him, I know it's hard for a miracle. But we're hoping; not giving up.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009:01:31
Monday, March 30, 2009:06:44
Do you ever recount havng sleepless nights before?
You know on those nights when you are constantly waking up.
You never have those deep sleeps that you dreamt about beautiful castles, your Romeo or Juliet anymore.
It's not insomnia, it's like you just feel so insecure.
You don't even have the courage to fall alseep just like that.
You feel that nobody ever gives you the sense of security you need.
You feared having to wake up to things you are terrified of happening.
You sense and you think incessently that you may miss out on things happening while you are deep asleep.
Every now and then, I'm facing nights like these.
Sometimes, I hope I can forget about some things.
But it appeared that I can't.
I pondered over, I don't if I am just timid or I really don't wish to lose this lifestyle I'm having now.
Upon thinking back, do I feel happy this way?
That I always have to fear things happening, that I always have be suffocated and suffering in silence alone?
Will anyone truly understands what I feel?
It's not as easy as one two three or abc.
It's not like you can just give up, because everyone have feelings.
And I am one who has, like any ordinary person.
I can't believe I'm actually like this now.
You know on those nights when you are constantly waking up.
You never have those deep sleeps that you dreamt about beautiful castles, your Romeo or Juliet anymore.
It's not insomnia, it's like you just feel so insecure.
You don't even have the courage to fall alseep just like that.
You feel that nobody ever gives you the sense of security you need.
You feared having to wake up to things you are terrified of happening.
You sense and you think incessently that you may miss out on things happening while you are deep asleep.
Every now and then, I'm facing nights like these.
Sometimes, I hope I can forget about some things.
But it appeared that I can't.
I pondered over, I don't if I am just timid or I really don't wish to lose this lifestyle I'm having now.
Upon thinking back, do I feel happy this way?
That I always have to fear things happening, that I always have be suffocated and suffering in silence alone?
Will anyone truly understands what I feel?
It's not as easy as one two three or abc.
It's not like you can just give up, because everyone have feelings.
And I am one who has, like any ordinary person.
I can't believe I'm actually like this now.
Labels: my guiding star?, Where are you
:00:16
Life is fragile.
Can you imagine a life has just ended when you have finished reading this statement?(Probably?)
This is true, or probably seconds later.
Can you believe?
People, around us- they die due to illnesses, some die because their time is up..
Can you imagine someone whom you love, whom you care for, or someone who is close to you dying? Can you bear to think of that?
I can't. I hope for it, not to come.
But this is Life.
God creates life, but it takes away lives as well.
A story about a boy..
(name will not be identified to protect him& it's rather rude as well to reveal)
This true story is about a boy.
He is only going to be twelve years old on his birthday this year.
Not like us, he's not a Singaporean.
Hardly do Singaporeans like us have to lead a life like this.
Traveling to other countries to study, for numerous reasons.
He's from China, he is here for just less than six months, with his mom and dad.
An active, diligent boy who is his parents' one& only..
Yes, his parents dote on him a lot,
and his mother will try to give him the things he wanted being their one and only child.
Despite being such a young boy, he is mature at his age.
He knows, that studying hard will bring him a future. If he studies hard and obtain good results, he will have a bright future.
Yet, he is now lying in the hospital ward now.. in one of the hospitals in Singapore.
No one knows what will happen to him.
It was revealed that he had a brain damage..
Who knows, only God-- whether he will be able to survive or not.
He was admitted to the hospital two days ago.
Now, he can't even open his eyes even if he wanted to- to have a look at his parents-- the ones he loved dearly and his relatives.
He cannot even open his mouth to speak, to ask his parents to stop crying.. to lie to them "he will be fine.."
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He is still in a coma, being unconscious while some of us may be happily watching soap operas or on Facebook doing some stupid quizzes or playing silly games..
He is so young, he hasn't even get a chance to see the world, yet.
I'm sure, if he can-- he will want to obtain good results from himself(to get a good future) to make his parents proud and of course, his tuition teacher(the girl who told me this story abt him).
I've seen the boy only once, he was sitting outside his mom's workplace, probably revising his schoolwork and/or probably resting in his school uniform.. while waiting for his mom to knock off.
He is a good boy who is diligent and who listens to his tuition teacher.
He does his hw.
He's just a kid.
Why must this happened to a young boy, who is good and filial?!
Why must he be suffering now in the ward, with probably more than 5 or less than 10 tubes supporting his lives now?
I pray, and I hope God lets him pull through everything.
Let him be a healthy and happy kid, once more.
Boy (although I don't really know you) I hope you're strong and you will be able to tide over this crisis.
Please, don't give up on yourself.. cuase nobody is giving up on you.
Your tutor still owes you your sweets and treats too.
Everyone will be waiting to see your improved and good results!
;]
God bless him. Do pull through.
and girl, stay strong. :D a fighter needs his friends as well.
Shouldn't we cherish our loved ones ard us?
Cause we will never know what will happen to him/ her the very next minute.
Can you imagine a life has just ended when you have finished reading this statement?(Probably?)
This is true, or probably seconds later.
Can you believe?
People, around us- they die due to illnesses, some die because their time is up..
Can you imagine someone whom you love, whom you care for, or someone who is close to you dying? Can you bear to think of that?
I can't. I hope for it, not to come.
But this is Life.
God creates life, but it takes away lives as well.
A story about a boy..
(name will not be identified to protect him& it's rather rude as well to reveal)
This true story is about a boy.
He is only going to be twelve years old on his birthday this year.
Not like us, he's not a Singaporean.
Hardly do Singaporeans like us have to lead a life like this.
Traveling to other countries to study, for numerous reasons.
He's from China, he is here for just less than six months, with his mom and dad.
An active, diligent boy who is his parents' one& only..
Yes, his parents dote on him a lot,
and his mother will try to give him the things he wanted being their one and only child.
Despite being such a young boy, he is mature at his age.
He knows, that studying hard will bring him a future. If he studies hard and obtain good results, he will have a bright future.
Yet, he is now lying in the hospital ward now.. in one of the hospitals in Singapore.
No one knows what will happen to him.
It was revealed that he had a brain damage..
Who knows, only God-- whether he will be able to survive or not.
He was admitted to the hospital two days ago.
Now, he can't even open his eyes even if he wanted to- to have a look at his parents-- the ones he loved dearly and his relatives.
He cannot even open his mouth to speak, to ask his parents to stop crying.. to lie to them "he will be fine.."
...
He is still in a coma, being unconscious while some of us may be happily watching soap operas or on Facebook doing some stupid quizzes or playing silly games..
He is so young, he hasn't even get a chance to see the world, yet.
I'm sure, if he can-- he will want to obtain good results from himself(to get a good future) to make his parents proud and of course, his tuition teacher(the girl who told me this story abt him).
I've seen the boy only once, he was sitting outside his mom's workplace, probably revising his schoolwork and/or probably resting in his school uniform.. while waiting for his mom to knock off.
He is a good boy who is diligent and who listens to his tuition teacher.
He does his hw.
He's just a kid.
Why must this happened to a young boy, who is good and filial?!
Why must he be suffering now in the ward, with probably more than 5 or less than 10 tubes supporting his lives now?
I pray, and I hope God lets him pull through everything.
Let him be a healthy and happy kid, once more.
Boy (although I don't really know you) I hope you're strong and you will be able to tide over this crisis.
Please, don't give up on yourself.. cuase nobody is giving up on you.
Your tutor still owes you your sweets and treats too.
Everyone will be waiting to see your improved and good results!
;]
God bless him. Do pull through.
and girl, stay strong. :D a fighter needs his friends as well.
Shouldn't we cherish our loved ones ard us?
Cause we will never know what will happen to him/ her the very next minute.
Sunday, March 29, 2009:23:28
My overdued pics. :D
Overdue pictures with Aline darling at chalet last week. :]
I swear, I will never forget. NEVER!
People like you makes relationship more interesting, and different.
Is this love?
I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
Saturday, March 28, 2009:22:57
Sorry guys, I haven't been updating.. :c
Was busy and I have no contact with the pc.
Am currently in my own house :]
I miss my poodle boy, maybe Pudding will make a nice name? Lol.
Went to Sam darling's house just now, chatted with her and Sarah. Been some time since I last met up with them <3s
Went to Anchorvale Cc with Aline love yst, met with Janet with Aline t CP after that.
And my hand-- it's injured :c at Anchorvale CC!
Pizza hut with the girls, anyway I saw Peipei there then i saw my BFF, Shi han! :D
Girl, don't be passerby already. Put your name down! <3s
Worked last night, thanks for sending me home red BMW friend. :D
I'm sick now too, zzz flu and sore throat..
Things coming up..
-Chalet(poly clique) on 30th-31st
-Chalet, bestie's 18th bday! (02th-03th)
Congrats bestie for getting in to singing audition:] <3s
-school, year2 starting on 20th april..
-my bday coming! ;D less than 2 more mths. heh!
Some fucktard spoiled my day today, shan't mention. It only makes my blood boil.
Was busy and I have no contact with the pc.
Am currently in my own house :]
I miss my poodle boy, maybe Pudding will make a nice name? Lol.
Went to Sam darling's house just now, chatted with her and Sarah. Been some time since I last met up with them <3s
Went to Anchorvale Cc with Aline love yst, met with Janet with Aline t CP after that.
And my hand-- it's injured :c at Anchorvale CC!
Pizza hut with the girls, anyway I saw Peipei there then i saw my BFF, Shi han! :D
Girl, don't be passerby already. Put your name down! <3s
Worked last night, thanks for sending me home red BMW friend. :D
I'm sick now too, zzz flu and sore throat..
Things coming up..
-Chalet(poly clique) on 30th-31st
-Chalet, bestie's 18th bday! (02th-03th)
Congrats bestie for getting in to singing audition:] <3s
-school, year2 starting on 20th april..
-my bday coming! ;D less than 2 more mths. heh!
Some fucktard spoiled my day today, shan't mention. It only makes my blood boil.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009:23:25
2e2(of that particular year.. lol)
girls and him.
the guys grp.
guys.
Random: the guys.
to bday boy! ;D
he's so happy yay! :]
my cutie sis there beside PLM. :Danw, wl send me the other pcs as well(grps)?
may your wish come true!
may your wish come true!hope you enjoyed!
xoxo!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO LEONG MING(26/3)! :]
Hope you love the mini celebration at chalet
and hope you love the cake& card from girlfs and I!
Just some updates. :D
-had the first tuition yst.
-watched Coming soon and Mall cop last week.
-probably getting pay tmr :) :)
-am enjoying holidays and im getting more and more busy..
I can't believe I'm getting that from you.
Hope you love the mini celebration at chalet
and hope you love the cake& card from girlfs and I!
Just some updates. :D
-had the first tuition yst.
-watched Coming soon and Mall cop last week.
-probably getting pay tmr :) :)
-am enjoying holidays and im getting more and more busy..
I can't believe I'm getting that from you.
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I really enjoyed myself these days, thanks to my friends!! ;D
Been donkey years since I had been sooooooooooooooo happy and be able to laugh heartily.
With my girlfs love, and the other guys at chalet.
Thanks for being such a good host and thanks for the rides! :]
To you: I will always remember.
Been donkey years since I had been sooooooooooooooo happy and be able to laugh heartily.
With my girlfs love, and the other guys at chalet.
Thanks for being such a good host and thanks for the rides! :]
To you: I will always remember.
Sunday, March 22, 2009:18:30
Thinking back on our relationship, I used to remember you being so sweet.
You, being so caring..
You, without failing to be by my side..
You loving me.
You used to hug me and give me warmth..
I used to think maybe I am the world's happiest girl cos I have a boyf, you..
Saturday, March 21, 2009:18:26
I wished you hasn't say that, cause it's breaking my heart..
I'm down with flu again. :c
Didn't make it to Wild wild wet with the babes, or go or the briefing at Kallang..
I'm sorry girls..
I'm down with flu again. :c
Didn't make it to Wild wild wet with the babes, or go or the briefing at Kallang..
I'm sorry girls..
Tuesday, March 17, 2009:03:08
Met up my girls today, didnt get pay yet :c
Girl, you'll be strong. I will too. :)
But let not get our hopes up, then have them dashed..
Girl, you'll be strong. I will too. :)
But let not get our hopes up, then have them dashed..
Saturday, March 14, 2009:22:19
Hello hello! :D
I'm bored, hungry..
Baby is sleeping, oh I mean the big one.. not the small one.
Anyway, my little baby-- he's going to be three months old already on the 20th.
On this 18th, it's another monthsary for us, 26th isn't it?
Supposingly lil baby will be getting third vaccination this 18th but well..
He was sick for last few weeks, so it's postponed. :c
Some pictures from an email, thought it was rather cute uh. :D
santa claus! im here t deliver gifts! :D
okay yes im actually harry potter's pet.. :D
Isn't this cuteee?
before i forget again: this pic. haha :] loves <3Yes, I'm bored..
Should I, should I not?
Thursday, March 12, 2009:02:37
A girls' day out.
Fyi, there are a lot of images.
Leave if you must :D
Fyi, there are a lot of images.
Leave if you must :D
Bitches have a thing against my hair. said it's lil etc :c
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Three days in consecutive, movies sprees.You forgot?
Monday's Marley&Me, Tuesday's Push and Wednesday's He's not that into you.
I must say the second movie is average to me..
However, I love the first and third! <3
So true, so much like reality. Touching and sad and happy.
Met Z,A,W at Cine Leisure, movie started at 1650. I was there in time!
After the movies, the loves of my life and I went to have dinner @ KFC.
Saw Joey, Shawn, Ashley and Jamie at later end of the day at diff places, turned out our two grps were in same theatre. HAHA, Fate for someone uh?
Saw Liling and her friend too .. after that I saw Birthday girl Angel(11thMarch) with her boyf at town too :D Babe, so sorry I didn't join Sam you all yst. Saw and glad that you have enjoyed. Nice bangs there! <3 I realised school resumes 20thApril! And.. it's second year for me! Junior :D haha. Anyway, we got back our reults yesterday(thanks to efficient TEMASEK POLY) unlike some sch hor Aline TOOK EXAMS EARLIER BUT GO RESULTS LATER. JK! :P
Anyway, I passed every subject including Bus Stats. Omg omg!
I got 0 A, 2 B, 2 C+, 1 C and 1D.. :c
At least, I got thru Year 1 with no supplementary paper at all! :] So I'm still rather happy..
Shd learn to be contented uh, after all I put in that amt of effort. Lol.
THANKS TO Celine, A's sis for sending us back-- to Kovan at least. :D haha.
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P.S: HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO KEREEN SOH(LAO DA)!
Hope you enjoy many, I'm so sorry I wasn't there.
Dear, please be as cheerful and happy as always.
I love you sis! :]
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I don't know how to make myself better..
since you won't be the one to make me feel better.
P.S: I still remembered there was once a passerby who tagged on my blog, he or she said to me "your happiness will come back to you" ..
I hope so, but when?
