Sunday, November 16, 2008:00:29
Initially, I should have posted up all the pictures and could have shown the events that have took place in sequence. That day is over. That day our deal could have been sealed. I also don't know what have took over, the date may have changed. The things remained.
I would not have mind all these things happening to me, but why you must be the guy who is doing all of these to me? You are the one whom I have ever love so much, and I cherish you so so much.. I could have give up my own life to exchange for yours.
I treat you good, I won't say "well".. You, yourself are the clearest, of how I treat you. Don't say you are guilty, don't ever say you are sorry. You know it won't help. IT NEVER WILL. DON'T FUCKING COME BREAK MY HEART TIMES AND AGAIN! When you know how much, and how clearly doing all of these things would have hurt me and break my heart!
Why must you? I would rather learn to see with my heart still, if I can ever choose. I don't want to see with my eyes, I don't want to see everything so clearly.
Yes, I'm silly I'm a fool to be deceiving myself. Because all I think about is you, I just don't wish to lose you. But what's the point? When all you do, is just to "take" and not try to "give". What you are doing now is not Love, you are just hurting me more.
Why must you hold me back times and again when I'm about to let you go? Why must you drop the tears you shed that night, and told me those words from your heart? Are you telling me they were fake, they were just "entertaining"..? Why must you show signs of changes, then give me words of assurance and make me all crazy again..?
I'm a human being too(I'm the same as you), I have always care for your feelings and respected you. But, what am I to you? Why have you become this selfish? You cared only about your feelings, you forgot I have got a heart as well.. that I will cry even when I watch a moving soap opera. Why why why?
DOES Crushing the hopes that you gave to me gave you a better egoisitc level?
That, you feel happy about me being upset? I don't need your sympathy, save it man.
I have said and I will stick firmly: Once I'm gone, I will never be back. Trust me, mark my words. I will be gone, for good. (Aren't you happy and glad?)
I have gave you enough chances, I deliberately did so much just to let you know. Since you are still so "determined", I will stick to. You can so-called be so not bothered about the things I have said or did, but I'm telling you I have seen your true colours finally!
I may love you but "Love is blind" .. One day, I will give up on you totally. And I know, that day is not too far away.
