我的心會痛
but..
我會好好過♥
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Using this chance,
I also want to blog about my life in school.
It's like, I know I have not been doing my part.
I have been feeling unhappy all this while,
I felt guilty that others are doing their part
even after when ..
Our group- it's like the guys are alway doing their jobs very diligently- Joel, Benjy and Wei Pin.
The girls- Bev, Sa, and I.
They did try and do something, and they did.
However, I'm like a slacker.
I hate myself for giving excuses all these while.
The guys were nice, they did not really flare up at us before for not attending the group discussion meetings.
They just rant a bit(to others), here and there.
It's already very nice of them, thank you.
I guessed all of you might have regret,
like being in the same group.
I sincerely apologize to everyone here.
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I'm very vexed,
really very unhappy over my life.
There's absolutely nothing I can excel in.
I'm not on good terms with my boyfriend,
we can never be like before.
He can never listen to me the way I wished he was.
He can never be there for me.
About my family:
I did a lot of things to make my parents upset& unhappy. Disappointd too.
Friends& girlfriends- they were embargo from me.
Sometimes, when I feel like having a listening ear,
I realised I'm not in the position to do so.
After all, it was me who wasn't there when they needed me.
I'm like "using" them.
I hate it, hate myself.
& then I cannot do a lot of things I want to do.
It's like, happiness is gettng further and further away from me.
