♥ >ELIZABETH-GGH

Warning: This is not Leland I'm talking about. :)

You guys can think out he/she to be whoever it is.

I know I never should have done that.

If I did not do that, I would not feel so deeply hurt now.

Lets say, coincidence or sheer, plain luck.

You are not for me to judge either.

In the first place, I don't really know you well either.

And it's like,

I did not know you are so two-sided as well.

But maybe, it's in the genes and in the blood.

I don't really know.(I don't want to know either)

When I have already learnt of the things you did behind one,

I tried to talk myself out of it.

That this action alone should never let me have this judgement of you.

I tried to forget,

whenever I tried hard to change and not think of you who is so despicable.

I think, friends around me probably have a good impression of you.

They thought you were nice, and everything.

But the fact, the bloody fact

is that you are bloody not nice at all.

Know what?

I know I can be so naive and foolish.

I can get emotional too easily.

And I show my weaknesses out so easily.

That's why I always am getting hurt.

I tried not to cry, but these feelings and facts before me are like "stinging" me.

I feel like crying now!

And I'm indeed useless,

see I'm going to start my waterworks pretty soon.

I will stop all my actions okays! Fine.

My mom was right.

I should learn to love myself more.

*****

Don't ask please.

It gotta hurts, real hurts

if the questions were to pop right you from you too.