♥ >ELIZABETH-GGH

Thursday, July 31, 2008:19:45

Didn't upload, pictures taken two weeks ago.

Should I change my hairstyle?

Curls better or straight hair?

I don't mind, comments :D

醉了吧，反正清醒更断肠

无力去原谅你背叛

算了吧，反正有你更孤单

你不会知道遗忘有多难

给你的心不要你还

痛不要你偿

陪你走过一段，七情六欲全都品尝

爱你的苦不要你扛

泪不要你挡七情六欲打翻

笑着哭哭着笑去想

你的模样

走了吗？走到哪里都一样

你不肯搬出我心上

断了吗？

断了见面想不断为何我总是为难我的慌

:01:11

I'm back from Lionel's house with BB and the others. :)

Hit town yesterday with the guys, the usual ones.Saw Qian Ru there, at Cine with her friends :)
Hitting town again, Cine Leisure for "The Mummy" later during the evening.

Yeah! Woohoo! He's having off again, yesterday& today!

*I'm logging off for my Marketing Fundamentals project! :D

Ciaos!

Miss me okay?

(This part is just for myself, personal entrry)

I'm going to let the inner child possess me once again.

I'm jealous >,<

Cause he gave my favorite toy to other girls!

Shit you Babey! :(

I dropped tears, went to toilet.

Felt so disgraceful.

I'm like seventeen already?!

Saw this picture, it was taken on my going-to-be 16th birthday at Punggol Park. It's actially BB and me :) That was the cake he bought for me on my birthday. My favourite winnie-the-pooh and friends! Thinking of this made my heart feel sourish..

And I wonder if you know why?

Tuesday, July 29, 2008:19:48

I'm going to study hard now from today onwards, examinations are just three weeks away.

I will just push everything aside, at least I will try my best to.

I don't want to let anything bother me..

And leave tears rolling down my cheeks,

for almost everyday, every night.

And you must know,

I'm not a super-woman.

I'm just a human-being.

I have emotions too.

I'm just a girl.

Monday, July 28, 2008:14:39

It had been ages since I had so much laughter. The silly and dumb videos, they are hilarious.

Sunday, July 27, 2008:22:42

This is nice :D

Kat's ice cream.

East Coast's restaurant.

Hello.

My cousin. :D

Kathy and I.

Beautiful view.

Just a picture for Kat and I, she's my sis if you guys don't know.

Horray. I did my E-learning assignment for CSA and had submitted it! :) I love to feel loads getting off my shoulder, 'cause there are too many things weighing on my minbd already. It's far too heavy, I may collaspe very soon. Anyway, today is my Aunty's birthday! :)

Happy 6oth birthday Aunty! <3

I will remembered everything, you did for us.

Helping us in every way, or any way.

Met up with Kat at Compass Point at around four p.m.

Dinner at East Coast with relatives, Aunty's birthday :)

Kat and I took the MRT down to Dhoby Ghaut, then we got onto bus 14. I thought it was the right bus, but the right one is actually bus 16! :(

Anyway, we got lost. In the end, we reached the Japanese restaurant only at about seven p.m.

After that, my cousin came to fetch us, we were so blur!

*
Thank you Lionel for yesterday and sorry for troubling you. :)

For accompanying me down to Tampines, to find BB.

I wanted to give a surprise visit, Lionel's was a call-to-tell-him.

In the end, three of us had supper with Jashawn and another colleague at Tampins then Jashawn sent us back to BB's place.

Saturday, July 26, 2008:23:15

This are the pictures for 25th July, Friday.

Pictures taken from Anabel's blog. :)

Our very formal presentation :)

Guys only. In the middle, that's Benjy- the best presenter in our class.

Class, a partial part. Some left after that.

:19:29

你的笑你的快乐或许我爱太多想太多

我能感受他比我适合

请原谅我原谅我不成熟

请原谅我好想自私将你占有

爱过恨过哭过也笑过亲吻过你的脆弱

:16:57

Just got back home, work was very relaxed this morning to afternoon. Worked at Suntec City with Jin May, Anabel, Phycilla, her sister and friend and Joel :D

All of us ladies were sittng at the counters, in charge of registeration. Poor Joel standing and checking particulars at another side. He does not ven earn a penny, but his aunt dotes on him :) It was really easy money, we were only busy during the first one hour plus. My first time working with them, I want to work again ;D.

All of us were so tired, I had barely three hours of sleep.

Because it's Clement Goh's birthday.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY! :)

Yes, hope you will be with her soon. :)

All of us,all the guys and I went AMK hub.

We went to K-box, sang from nine till three a.m.

Had a birthday cake too, and Clem enjoyed a butter facial.

Blueberry, to be precised, :D

Had supper, then we cabbed back home.

Friday, July 25, 2008:17:31

At home still, probably going to town alone soon. Setting off in an hour' time. Far East.

That dress- which i just got on Wednesday had a hole.

No receipt, no anything.

I hope, they will change for me. :(

I love the dress, it's simple and I just love it.

Sigh.

Our first times, presented to P.OM this afternoon, to Mrs Thoi.

May not be that great, will definitely be better next time. :)

Practice makes perfect.

Went SKSS, with Peipei.

Collected testimonial.And the feeling's no longer the same.

It sucks, for me to see changes all ard me.

But they are inevitable.

Being paranoid will not get you anywhere.

Get up, won't you?

~~Fugging piece of shit.~~

Are you going to flunk everything and repeat for the subjects?

Kbox tonight, birthday celebration for Clement. :)

Happy advanced 18th Birthday, my friend.

Hope everyone will enjoy tonight.

I will learn to love myself.

Thursday, July 24, 2008:23:14

Did I say?

Haha, I forgot.

I really did.

I have my favourite pet back,

it's on my bed already.

At least, it will never leave me.

It will not follow your ways.

It will never leave me,

like how you will one day.

Every night, it will accompany me.(like how it used to)

It will take your place.(when i was still dreaming to be yours, that very night.)

It will comfort me with its tiny hug when my tears dropped silently.

(and whenever i missed you, i will look at it.)

'Cause it reminds me of you,

and how I used to love you.

:02:02

I just managed to stop my tears from flowing.

Of course, I hope very soon I can smile again very day and stop all these crying.

A pity, I'm an imbecile fiasco.

*Okay. I have decided not to post yesterday's happenings here.

So head down to 23rd July okay? :)

Wednesday, July 23, 2008:23:53

Girls and Joel; the birthday boy. :D

Guys only.

1R02, sa may not be there physically but there, with us in our hearts. Love 1ro2! <3>

We rocks.

there are actually some

All of us. :]

Elizabeth(Me), Ee Wen, Chiew Ping and Bev. :D

We did not fool him, or push him in :)

He's trying hard, licking it all over.

His birthday cake!

Happy 17th Birthday to Joel! :)

Stay happy and cheerful as always.

The class loves and needs you.

You are our guding light.

The always selfless, helpful and responsible man

Don't be stressed about studies, you can do it my friend! :)

After M.F tutoral, everyone prepared and went down to Design School area as we decided to hold the mini birthday celebration for Jojo there :) Took class pictures, a pity Sa was not here. Anyway, we can always take more again next time& we missed you! :)

-
Joel received a wallet& cake from us.
After school, I headed back home, then went down to AMK. Went to my Aunty's house for a while then I went down to NYP(Nanyang Polytechnic) :)

My very first time there!

I went there to find beloved Aline, she promised to accompany me for my formal wears and heels.
Had Mac with Janet&Josephine at NYP, then finally met up with Aline.

Went town(Fareast first), got my fomral skirt and top. Then a pair of back heels( which almost killed me! :( ), got a white dress too. I thought it's not bad. :)

Got a pair of sandals for Bro& I.

Opportunity cost: My Adidas shoes! :(

I will still go and get it, I had decided!
And you know what?
I caught Batman: The dark knight again! :)

Cos Aiai never watch, I accompanied her!
It's always the best for the first time!
We caught it at Cine Leisure.....

...

Sorry, I don't feel like blogging anymore, supposingly I wanted it to be a happy post today but could not anymore.
With tears here and there.

I felt like shitxzx.

And I haven't even remove my make-up or lens yet. :(

I felt so useless.
Thanks Jin May, Aline :)

Thank you girl, for accompanyng me. Loves :)

K.O thanks too :)

there are more pics, of the babes of my class! shalll upload again! :D

Tuesday, July 22, 2008:06:14

I'm going to protect my own heart, at all costs.

The nightmares were/ are here again!

But I'm not going to let these affect me, in any case.

I just cannot bring myself to believe that,

there are actually so many hypocrites around me.

*Hope one day, you will feel guilty and repent.

I mean, everyone deserves a second chance.

I will then erase everything off.

Suddenly, I feel like a little girl once again,

uh so innocent :X

I'm so not you.

And you know

- what goes around comes around.

I'm very sure, RETRIBUTION WILL COME KNOCKING ON YOUR DOOR SO VERY SOON. :)

:05:11

I'm currently in school, well CSA project presentation today. Informal :)

It's the Dreamweaver webpage project, finally.

Thanks Bev and Sa for coming to school earlier to submit project, although we were still late.

Sa really did quite a lot for CSA and R.A projects. :D

Thumbs up!

*****

I must do better for our group presentation later.

Anyway, this Wednesday I'm going to get my formal top, skirt and heels.

P.O.M presentaion this Friday, 25thJuly.

Oh ya, start counting down to examinations again.

And books, lectures books and notes will be my besties then.

I will try to be more independent,

I will learn to stop everything, that I have once enjoyed doing so much.

Monday, July 21, 2008:12:40

Warning: This is not Leland I'm talking about. :)

You guys can think out he/she to be whoever it is.

I know I never should have done that.

If I did not do that, I would not feel so deeply hurt now.

Lets say, coincidence or sheer, plain luck.

You are not for me to judge either.

In the first place, I don't really know you well either.

And it's like,

I did not know you are so two-sided as well.

But maybe, it's in the genes and in the blood.

I don't really know.(I don't want to know either)

When I have already learnt of the things you did behind one,

I tried to talk myself out of it.

That this action alone should never let me have this judgement of you.

I tried to forget,

whenever I tried hard to change and not think of you who is so despicable.

I think, friends around me probably have a good impression of you.

They thought you were nice, and everything.

But the fact, the bloody fact

is that you are bloody not nice at all.

Know what?

I know I can be so naive and foolish.

I can get emotional too easily.

And I show my weaknesses out so easily.

That's why I always am getting hurt.

I tried not to cry, but these feelings and facts before me are like "stinging" me.

I feel like crying now!

And I'm indeed useless,

see I'm going to start my waterworks pretty soon.

I will stop all my actions okays! Fine.

My mom was right.

I should learn to love myself more.

*****

Don't ask please.

It gotta hurts, real hurts

if the questions were to pop right you from you too.

Labels: I mean it., I'm sorry

:08:08

Now, I'm over at BB's house.

He went working, very early again.

I hope time pass by so quickly, that suddenly he will be back-

right next to me soon! :(

Today, he's working at Tampines. :)

I revealed it, alright.

Anyway, I feel like watching Batman again! :(

Missed it, it's awesome!

When BB was showering, I quickly got up to iron his top for him, then get everything like socks, the work brochures pack for him nicely.

Sausages for him, as I feared he might be too peroccupied with making money and getting deals that he neglect his stomach and may not eat.

Baby, do take care of your health okay?

*****

By the way,

the guy who acted as Joker.

He died on 22January2008. Due to overdose of drugs,

don't know if he planned to do it or was an accident?

I did not read much, got it from the newspaper.

Must say he's a good actor too.

Anyway, in the movie-

he told three different stories as to why there were scars on his face on two sides of his mouth that make up a smile.

I love the guy who played Batman.

I must say I always like those actors but knew nothing about them :)

I think, he's like the guy who acted as Superman.

Both cool and serious, mature look ;D

Anyway, very sad to say-

exmas are coming once again.

Actually, it's had been ages since I last touch books or be serious and get down to work.

Last night, after I left Macdonald with Xue Ling& Yu Ting-

these two sweeties sent me to the bus-stop.

Thanks! Love you girls :)

Waited at bus-stop for BB, Jashawn drove Marcus and BB home almost everyday.

Yesterday, he drove us down to Punggol then we had supper.

After that, he sent us back home :)

Hopefully, Marcus and Leroy can pass their driving tests very soon( Marcus will be faster 'cos he's at his third already)

Then we all can ride in a car and go wherever we want to, anytime! :)

* I must say, I don't detest him as much as before already, after all. I mean- how bad a person is, he is good once before. I just don't want BB to get influenced by anyone or whatever.

Sunday, July 20, 2008:12:43

Currently, I'm at Rivervale Plaza's Mac with Xue Ling and Yu Ting :) Pei Ying just left, she said she's going to try uploading all the pictures for her birthday. I wondered if she will keep her words -.- Lol.

Okay, I'm trying to upload some pictures now. :D
Anyway, Baby went for his haircut at Supercut with Marcus in the afternoon just now, and I'm must say I'm very pleased 'cause he finally had a different haircut now :)

Lionel came shortly afterwards.

Baby's haircut?
It's very short and nerdy :P Haha.

A guai-guai look :)

And I'm missing Love a lot now. He did not call me. :(

By the way, friends please try not to message me now. Call me okay? My phone memory space is having error again, I sincerely apologized for any inconvenience caused. :)

And if you try to call me- currently my phone could not see any details.

So call me like a few hours later. I fyou're lucky, you would probably hear my voice.

*****

*Thanks to Yu Ting- I got to upload pictures :D

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Anyway, do you know what happened to me last night?

I felt so stupid, very hopeless and helpless.

I got lost in Seng Kang estate! When I'm living in Sk and it's not probably that big.

Okay, I have only Memoirs of a Geisha novel, my water bottle and B's house keys with me :(

I got lost. Initially, I ran from B's house to the M.P.H they usually kicked soccer.

To my dismay, they were not there :(

I thought to myself, must be the baskbetball court uh -.-

Then I rushed there, no one!

I was terrified, thoughts like BB lied to go other places, without me! Like they go meet whoever all those shitxzxz! :( :(

I could not remember Lionel's place. I ran over the same place five or six times(313+ those areas),

I was crying a lot. I'm definitely very frightened. It was midnight, to make matters worse- I saw a cat. I hate this creature, it never fail to frighten me! Then I'm alone and it was dark. Seldomly, one or two human-being coukd walk past.

What would you do then?

Being a helpless girl like me?

I know of cases like people on pretense of borrowing people's phone and then running away.

Therefore, I hestiated before I really did asked for somebody's cell.

And I was crying bitterly.

Finally, I approached a friendly couple, borrowed the husband's cell to call Lionel.

FORTUNATELY, for me- I mermorised Lionel's number. B did not bring his phone. I can't remember Leroy's number, I don't know Gordon's.

Marcus's no.- I know too.

Anyway, I was crying when Lionel picked up. He told BB.

BB did came out and looked for me.

He told me that he was shouting "Elizabeth Goh, where are you?!"

When we finally met-

he hugged me and comforted me.

He thought somebody did something bad to me, but nope.

I was very scared of molesters and rapists also :(

Luckily, I did not have the "luck" :)

I'm sure BB don't want me to have any mishaps too.

I think everyone was thinking why I'm like that too, when like I reached there.

******

Baby, I really need you to guide my hand wherever you go.

You are the only one, that I want you to hold my hand and walk all the way till my very last breath.

That incident last night, made me realised how dependent I am on you.

I'm very afraid to lose you.

I would be lost without you..

Saturday, July 19, 2008:14:59

Random one ;D

BB, I love you :D

I love to see BB smiling! :)

His side face, shuai w/o face :P

I wished, you will always be here for me. Just like how I am. To you*

This side face, I will always remembered.

A must-watch! ;D

He's definitely very man and cool! ;D

Why so serious? -Joker

Just got back B's house not long ago, with B, his brother Leroy and Marcus. From Vivocity.
We were supposed to be alone, just two of us today.

However, it's okays now.

I'm pretty used to it.

I skipped school today just because of our anniversary. I know I'm a bad girl. :( And the problem now is that have no MC, I don't know what to do! :( Can anybody teach or help me?

This is like the third time I have no MC, it wasn't playing truant for the first two times. I'm still not-so-naughty yet! Haha :D The first time was because of my dental appointment in the morning at Hougang then I was supposed to have MF tutorial in school. There was no way I can get there in time, from Tampines when I was studying? In the end, I got off- cos the dentist is was taking a very long time and there were 4 people before me, I coulh have got the receipt as proof then if I went for the dentist :(

The second time was on my birthday(I'll never forget)

I cried a lot on that day itself, I did not sleep a wink then I was feeling unwell too, but then I got back to school in time for Apel and RA. Thanks for my lovely classmates :)

I love you guys!*

*****

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Watched Batman, The Dark Night with him alone :D Finally, a twosome. This is definitely very, hard to come by. :D

Therefore, I cherished it.
Although there were still unhappiness :(

I will update again, I wanna go find Love! :D

Know what?!

Requested by my very Love, Leland! :)

I have to post very big!

HAHA!

His blood brother, Leroy* treated us to movies for that day, anniversary!

Inclusive of bookinbg fees and GST, the total was $21! :)

Thanks Leroy. BB bought a Adidas top for himself too.

Then, on that day itself-

Marcus, Leroy, LoveLove& I had dinner at nine plus at Kim Gary Hong Kong restaurant/ cafe?

It's located at the second level of Vivocity.

The food was average(to me), but many were queuing up.

But, their set meals were large. I mean, the protion of food being served.

Four of us were like looking at the picture, saying hey-

the guy in the picture look like Wang Zhong Ze(He's the one starring in Heart of Greed- Gilbert)

His looks is not bad that guy :)

Anyway, he's the spokeperson for the restaurant.

After looking at the menus,

we confirmed that it was him.

Any not some other chef. Stupid us.

Dumn asses.

Lol.

*****

Now, regarding Batman- The Dark Night! :)

It's nice, two and a half hours of the movie.

BB anbd I were so urgent:

Nature's calls!

But we ignored,

'cause we don't want to miss any part of the show

Go watch!

I also pondered over,
if the movie is really that great

is it because we finally get to watch a movie
and spend some quality time alone?

Just two-somely*

two of us only.

Anyway, it's not bad! :)Go catch it!

Don't get glued 'cos you will.

My rating is 4/5 :D

I wanna catch the Red Cliff too although I heard it's rather long and the ending was rather stupid like "To be continued.."

I got intrigued by this very statement:

"He wanted to start a war because of a woman?"

Neither am I a

very history person,

nor do I have any favorite guy in the movie.

But I got interested,

because of those old movies-

you know like

those old emperor or fools who want the beauty and forsake the kingdom!

Haha, very glady I don't mind to be the female lead :P

Just kidding.

See how honoured you will be if you have many who died because of you?

Those innocent old folks, the men who went to war not to fight for their own country but because the ruler wanted to do this, do that for his beloved.

Of course, the lady may feel guilty.

Haha.

Enough of crap, from me!

Go go!

Check the latest timing for Batman: The Dark Night now and rush down to watch! :D