I know this was one of his favourites, back then.
I missed those happy times, you beibei wo >,<This post is especially dedicated to thank my guardian angels(actually not so great lah! ;P). A big thank you to Tan Yining, To Man Si for being so nice to accompany me on 18th March(14th but I'm still crying), thanks Zoe Yak on 20th too for being there on my line& Zann (20thMarch) ;D Thanks for being my pillars of support, thanks for being such good listening ears. A bit of better is better than nothing at all, thanks girls. Went to meet Zann in the morning, we walked around at Lido's, Takashimaya(Ngee Ann City), Far East but I only got a simple top at Forever21. Mango, Zara, M)phopsis, Topshop, Adidas didn't catch my eye at all, we both think there's nothing really fabulous. Thanks girl, for listening to me whining. I wanna get more tops, dresses! And I went back to Max Mara and get my pay cheque and returned the uniforms. I slept at around three a.m and woke up at seven plus in the morning.
Thanks a lot, for those dark circles and puffy eyes.Actually I'm pretty guilty of what I did to my boyfriend dated last few months back then(mostly year2007) It turns out that Year 2008 was a torturing year for me, never fabulous. Until the day you assured me, until the day you treat me all over like your princess again, until the day I occupied the whole of your heart(again). It was like we had some sort of heart-to-heart talk yesterday, I cried a lot, he dropped some tears too. At least, we talked and then crapped a lot bla bla bla. I really missed those times. Bf still got no idea what I want all these while. I mean I didn't want to be a cold blanket, I wanted to be his supportive girlfriend too(I need time to change, I have already come this far with you. And I'm learning to cherish you more than everything I HAVE. I'm really sorry. Please be patient with me :)
Sorry guys I bore you out by reading 'cause I'm just repeating myself all over and over again with every entries. I'm sure tired! And I hate this fucking period, hate this fucking feeling.. I really hate everything. Seriously I can't stand myself a lot of times too, that unreasonable character, I can pretty childish at times too. I will blog all these as I guessed he will be too busy to be here, reading my blog. He went for a job interview with his pals, guessed he will be getting a job really soon. I'm not lonely, I got my friends/gfs too. I will learn to be independent(always am) but due to this r'ship, he has always been my shoulder, I feel that I can rely on him at times to help me complete the unfinished businesses, I really thank him. During the times that I took you for granted, I thanked you in my heart and that's why you're still living in there now, I'm sorry I didn't change. I'm not going to apologize to you in person 'cause I know you hate it and me too. I'm just trying to confide myself in this entry, just a tweeny little bit. 'Cus during this one year plus(regardless I'm with you or not), I've been bottling too much inside me and I truly really feel tired, my heart is getting heavier each time with every problem and I'm sick of all these. Well, I deserved it- it's ok. I've been crying a lot lately, I'm afraid if school starts I might not be free for this session for myself anymore. I can only pray that nothing changes, and I know my heart for you remains unchanged. I will learn to tolerate and bear with everything, I will just pray that time pass fast everyday 'cause I know everything will be different without you and this feeling sucks. Girlfriends, please remind me to control my temper too, I know I have to go through this phase and I'm trying hard now. I certainly cannot continue leading my life this way too, I'm sorry for neglecting you all and not meeting up too. And then, I will learn to be strong all over aain. So don't worry about me ;) I'm smiling. I'm waiting for you to wake up and have dinner, piggy..
P.S: I don't have any illness, my dear gfs. Happy and healthy as you are, and I eat as much as you do too.
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