Tears rolled down my cheeks again, and do you feel it? No, you never. How come you never feel what I'm feeling inside, probably you haven't been in this position before. Can you think of me and my feelings? I re-read most of the messages sent by you, telling me how much you love me and now- it seemed that it's just some happenings ages ago. Messages of you telling me how much Pooh loves Honey, how much you missed me, maybe it;s just wishful thinking for me to want us to get back like how we used to be. Tme flies, and people change. You can never hear how my heart feels,I have been trying to be strong for this one year plus. Whenever I shed tears in front of you, it's never because of you. And when I did shed for you, I'd never let you see. I probably won't be weeping loudly, but my heart just get so numbed that I realised I hate you more than love. Wouldn't you stop these torturing, I wished to be happy. I only wanted to be with someone I love, to care for me, to miss me only and let me be his only one. Are you doing so? Don't tell me the answers to my every questions, I would rather you asking yourself these. And When I cried myself to sleep those nights, you're probably on your games or sleeping away. Haven't you got a heart to think of me? Getting embargo is enough. Those chats that I yearned for deeply, were gone. Sweet whisperings were missed, and the love between us just seemed to extinguished.The passion is inside our hearts just never seem to be burning anymore. And I just wanted your attention too, wanting you to say you love me and I'm still your only one. Telling me I'm your girl again and no one else will take my place..
And now I'm competing with a non-living thing, justfor your attention.

{Edited}
Hello, I'm bored. Leland Aw haven't bath yet and he stinks! He sprained his ankle while playing basketball last night, hohoho >,< Serves him right, stop complaining that it's painful because you deserved it. I'm not a bad girlfriend, just that he really deserved(totally) it for being such a bad boyfriend. Recently, I've been feeling so uneasy 'cause I do not have to wake up early for work anymore. I missed all of my colleagues, and hope Shi Yin is coping well too. Tomorrow is Kellyn's birthday, I was wondering if I still can make it down to her chalet. Anyway, Happy Birthday to Kellyn Babe! :) Most probably, I'm going with B's Mom and him for his "leg-massaging". Another excuse for him not to go to school tomorrow. Anyway, I just found out today that Aline's appeal failed, she's not joining me at TP anymore :( She's in Nanyang Poly with Janet. While Zoe, Yining and Wan ling are posted to Republic Poly. For Joanne's, I have got no idea. Pei Ying, you gotta keep me company with KO too. Anyway, I'm happy to know that some of my friends are at TP too :D See you.

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