Apparently, I got into the lovely Temasek Polytechnic, but it's not my desired course I was assigned to! I just cannot believe it, I hate it that I'm at such a disadvantage 'cause I got no CCA deduction point. It sucks so much that I didn't get into Hospitality& Tourism(my most sought-after course) or even Leisure& Resort Management. Ok fine, I'm far from Hospitality 'cause the cut-off is like 11? But at least, I'm just 1 point away form Leisure, 2 points away from Law. I'm dejected, disappointed and despondent. I think that the system here in Singapore really sucks. I mean this is my future, I reluctantly add in those extra courses for the JAE Application for the fear that I might have no schools to attend that's why. I don't like Retail in the first place, well it sucks for me! I hate it, I FUCKING HATE THIS! I ONLY HAVE INTEREST FOR LIKE THESE FEW COURSES! I can't cultivate interest in the others. They are so not me anyway. I don't wanna get into a course which I totally have no interest in(who wants?) and I even dreaded this, I mean get into this course study and excel then get a Diploma three years from now then ten years down the road, I'm in this line, this type of job and I'm definitely regretting this! FUCK! I'm really frustrated. I mean I'm totally 100% interested in Hospitality& Leisure. I'm so Enthusiastic about studying! I'm definitely going to pull up my socks so freaking high and study real serious hard. And how come God is so cruel to me this time, leaving me with no choice. I mean well, I didn't study hard and smart only to panic at the eleventh hour and pass my freaking O's. I blamed myself for not getting an A2 for English and a B(at least) for Mathematics. Met up with Aline and Zoe for appeal in T.P, freak man. I'm so pisssssssssssssssssssseeeeeeeedddddddddd!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK! Ok, you got it. I'm so not-the-happy. I'm so very unhappy and the Singapore Tourism-related industry gonna lose me, a talented one!(Never mind about me, I'm just going crazy!)
OH SORRY MY DEARS, MY ENTRY IS SO FULL OF FUCKINGS& whine-ings GOING ON.
It truly really sucks that I'm caught in this situation now. Even a Burberry Blue Label, LV bag or a Gucci can never cheer me up now. Time's not going to heal this deep wound inside me now, Edison's already a disappointment for my fragile heart.
P.S : Thanks Baby, for trying to cheer me up with your kisses and hugs. :) Loves.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008:13:07
